Television, Television

I have to say that I would love to work in the movie industry... But I would love even more to work in Television.
I've become addicted to yet ANOTHER television show. That's not rare for me, considering I love television. But I don't like just any TV show. I like the good ones.

This time it's Lost. The main reason I watched Lost was because I lovelovelove JJ Abrams. I think he's a genius & I would loooove to work with him someday. He's so brilliant & I love everything he does. Which is also the reason why I think I'll try out Fringe. I've heard mixed reviews on it, so we'll see how that goes.

Other than that, it's back to watching more LOST. And then watching the shows that are on tonight. Some good ones tonight! Well more later.

<3 Z

The world is moving...

And I'm standing still. And here I am again. Alone. Everyone has left after I have come out to share a conversation.

The conversation is unheard. Unseen. And quickly forgotten.

Everything is so agitating, and aggravating and frustrating. Nothing seems to satisfy me. I change things a lot. I can't stand waiting for a long plan to unfold. I'm tired of hearing the word No. I'm tired of being denied a conversation or a laugh with a good friend because there are better and more important things out there. I'm tired of being walked away from.

Sometimes I feel like I'm kidding myself. What am I doing out here so far away from home ? Away from all those roots where I sprung from. Am I just wasting my time & lots of money ? It's hard for me to tell anymore. I try to express my concerns, but I feel as if they constantly just fall on deaf ears.

I feel like I'm constantly the one who can relate to someone's problem. But where's the one who can relate to me ? Why don't I have one ? Do I not express clearly that I need one too ?

For some reason I get this sinking feeling in my chest when I think about my life & what my future may hold. It's almost relatable to the feeling of heartbreak, or losing a good friend.

I am indifferent. And I want to go home oh so badly. Just for a weekend or so. I need a break from this ruthless city.Look Ducks.

Lindsey

moon

I need to set a bedtime for myself. Now that I actually have a bed.

Going to sleep is hard. When you need to. If you're just feeling sleepy, its easy to fall asleep, but knowing that you NEED to go to sleep to be able to function the next day, well.. it just makes it that much harder.

Everything midterms is over Yay. But school is not. And I have a lot of stuff coming up that I will be taking care of. I do need a good night's rest for all of that jazz

So, goodnight moon.

Goodnight Red Balloon

Z

The Office

well. I do this thing. Where... I start to watch a television show on DVD. Generally I like to start with the first episode of the first season. And well I watch them all. Either until the season finale on DVD or until the most recent episode of the most recent season. And well now I'm sucked into another one.

I can officially say I am an "Office" fan. I'll just add it to my list of television shows to watch this fall. The list is getting long ! But I have to say that I would love to work for NBC television someday. They have some great shows that I'd love to be a part of.

Anyways, can't wait for the Sept 25 premiere ! :) See you then Scranton PA.

Z

the leaky ceiling

woah ! i fell asleep from 7pm tonight until about 10:40pm. But if the roommate had never came home, I'm pretty sure I would have slept through the night !

I used to have a lot of DVDs. And now I have none. And I am sad, but hopefully I'll get the money to replace most of them. At least the ones I watched the most!
I wish my ceiling wasn't leaking anymore. :(

By the way I'm stoked:
http://www.apple.com/trailers/wb/harrypotterandthehalfbloodprince/love z

entourage

is the best show ever.

the end

z

What it means

I feel so blah right now. I'm having trouble falling asleep at a decent hour. I have a leg cramp in my right leg. By body hates me and I'm finding myself caring less and less.

Not too sure what it is anymore that makes me so worthless lately.



Loss of motivation ? July physically and mentally drained me. I need to find my inspiration, my motivation... Not too sure where to look, but I know that I need to find some stat.



I would like to say that things will unfold and they will be great, but what do I do when it's hard for me to care. Fucking something come together. RIGHT NOW. Or I might just be fucked.



The one thing I love the most and that has always been a major part of my life, I'm finding hard to care about.

this is serious.



z


it means stability and life and everlasting, dependable, beautiful and forever growing.

spit it back out

bop bop boppity bop.
I feel like I should have watched the opening ceremony for the olympics.
I feel like a bowl of pasta with yummy cheese was maybe not so healthy for me.
I feel like I want ice cream.
I feel like Jacob will be here in one week.
And I feel like I can't wait.
Even though I can and I will have to.

This is really not that important. I was just writing to tell you that I had an okay day.

Was pretty tired this morning while trying to pay attention to my Protools 2 teacher. But was almost completely lost.

I saw Shawshank Redemption in our school's theater. Might I say, what a fantastic movie experience. Loved it.

That's all.

Peace,

Z

oh snap and no sleep

This is where it's at. I was looking for you today blog. I couldn't find you, because I forgot.. So I made a new one & now I have three. But I can delete the other ones, because this one is important..

And I can't sleep. Too many thoughts are running through my head. It's almost 5 AM PT. Why am I still fucking awake ? I need to yell at myself to GO TO SLEEEEEEEEEEP.

Oh, jeeze.. I guess I'll fall asleep sooner or later. Go away fucking crazy thoughts.

Peace blogz.

Z

That's Debatable

woooow. i am supposed to be writing in this thing... and i never doo... what a loser i am! I'm eating sliced deli turkey. for dinner....
pretty good i do say.oh i also had yogurt for dinner.
so lets see lets see... last we left off in OHIO.. and.. yes.. that is the main point that i was STILL in OHIO.. what the fuck.. At least now I am not in Ohio. good deals yes??
I've been thinking a lot lately... well about a lot of stuff to be honest. Today, I listened to two friends of mine have a strange conversation. I found that even though I was only half involved in the conversation, I was very agitated by it. I was becoming so bothered, and I had no idea why.
Now these to guys, are really really great guys. They're so unique and both have great minds. But the thing that bothered me most, is that neither was willing to accept any opinions that the other person had.
When I have a debate with someone, I will generally accept their opinions for what they are. THEIR opinions.. then I will state mine. But this conversation today was completely different, and I only now realize that this is probably why I was so uncomfortable being in this conversation. I'm an open-minded person, who truly believes that everyone SHOULD have their own opinion. So for me to hear two people try to tell each other that they're WRONG... Now I can't handle that. To me... that's wrong...
Well.. everything is debatable, thats what I always say. Gets me out of sticky situations where I necessarily don't agree with what someone is saying.
I guess I'm a peaceful person who, doesn't like to argue... There are few things I will argue about, and those things I stand firmly.
That is all for now really. Maybe I will blog more often. Kind of entertaining, and helpful. I've discovered why I was so distraught today. Thanks blogger.
z

2008?

Today... which is technically the 2nd... Is the beginning of 2008.. most of which I will be in a totally different state... on the total opposite side of the country..
Am I completely fuckin nuts..? Yes I am... welcome to my life.. We'll see what happens next...


but I do get to go to LA next weekend.. awesome. Bye love

Z