Sunday, August 10, 2008

What it means

I feel so blah right now. I'm having trouble falling asleep at a decent hour. I have a leg cramp in my right leg. By body hates me and I'm finding myself caring less and less.

Not too sure what it is anymore that makes me so worthless lately.



Loss of motivation ? July physically and mentally drained me. I need to find my inspiration, my motivation... Not too sure where to look, but I know that I need to find some stat.



I would like to say that things will unfold and they will be great, but what do I do when it's hard for me to care. Fucking something come together. RIGHT NOW. Or I might just be fucked.



The one thing I love the most and that has always been a major part of my life, I'm finding hard to care about.

this is serious.



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it means stability and life and everlasting, dependable, beautiful and forever growing.

1 comment:

imamelfan said...

You are loved, you are liked, you are needed, you are wanted, and most of all you are loved....So you need to just HTFU and stop wallowing in your self pity.....There are young people dying in Darfur. Stop the slaughter in Darfur! I gave money to them, St. Jude, and American Idol gives back. I have none to help you buy your DVD's back. But I love you....