incomprehensible

Well it took me a long time to gain access to the internet. Then it took me a long time to log into this stupid blog for some reason... But here I am.. Access granted..

I was very frustrated. I threw a fit, I may have even shed a pathetic little tear. But I got over it quickly. I hate being in airports. I used to not mind, but I'm tired of waiting. Sitting around for two hours or three hours when I could be making my way home in that time by catching that earlier flight.

Instead of saying "Sorry this flight is full, overbooked actually" You could just tell me the truth: that you're too lazy to put me on standby in case there's a seat open.

But as I mentioned, I've moved on from that.

Because I'm still sitting in this airport and there's nothing I can do about it. At least not for another hour or so... when I will move myself and my belongings to an airplane and then to a new airport for another three hours. (I'm shrieking with joy)

I'm in Tampa. Probably for the last time... unless I decide to visit for some spontaneous reason..

My grandfather passed away recently. So I've been here for the weekend with family to gather his belongings, sort through memories, and to be together.

And now I'm going back to LA...

Obsessions

I am tired of obsessions. Obsessions in this recession is the only way I have been living for a while.

And I am tired of it. Overrated. I need cold turkey.

It has been consuming me. Coming before everything else. And it doesn't make me feel any better. It only makes me feel worse when this obsession is not available. This obsession with recession and the lessons I try to learn.

I would be lying if I said I wasn't enjoying my obsession. But lately it's consuming me. And I am not yet ready to be consumed.

I have a disgust for school and work. Because I am always so dissatisfied lately. I have been here before and I remember... I certainly remember my dissatisfaction.

I don't want to rely on my obsession, for obsession you have let me down too many times before. I don't need another notch. Not quite yet obsession.
I am sorry to all those who I have hurt in the past with my obsessions and dissatisfactions and neglectfulness. I am truly sorry.

Breaking free is where I need to be. Like who is me? I keep forgetting. And I find the answer for a short while and it escapes me in an instance. I am always hoping I am not making the biggest mistake of my life.

If so, I will learn from it. Because I am ready to learn again. Write on my brain please, give me the right keys.

Sorrry that there are rhymes in there . But they are for all you punk ass bitches that need some rhythm. Half of this is obsession. The other half is me. Next time... it is all me. (or at least what i want YOU to think is me)

z

39 z's.

39 You are so special.

Z 7 bottoms keepin it real.. or fresh, but that's silly.. like brocooli. (it's cooler than broccoli cause it has 2 eyes)

i want need those HD vision glasses. My vision needs to be clearer.

You don't know me at all. You could just propped me up on the table like a mannequin.

Mannequin is a good great movie! haahaha blerg.

snap crackle & pop .. why are you such cereal sluts ? always slutting it up in front of the mini wheats..

Please let me drive you(r) crazy car!

dusty said the juice was depressing. in the fridge !

Things will turn red once i have those hd vision goggles. Well they are not goggles, they are glasses, cause otherwise every1 would look ridiculous.. Then again those red things look ridiculous as well.

Z wants to eat.
Z wants to fist fight.
Z wants to drive on a street (Crescent Heights) where every light changes right before you arrive and changes back TWO seconds after. They are surprise stop signs is all. You aren't expecting those bitches!.

Z still wants to eat.
Z wants to get a job.
Z wants to do something incredibly exciting.. for her, and her life. Which will be full of other shit. So she wants to remember everything she wants to do. Z talks in third person

Z lives on 3rd street. (kind of jerks.)

You're a Jerk (iknow)

hey hey.

I have a tongue. And I want to paint my walls.. but doesn't want to get kicked out..

-z

i want to ride my bicycle .

Lucid

Simon & Garfunkel.

And I can't wait for Halloween. Those are hints to what I am talking about here man.
To England where my heart lies. Hearts on Franklin.

My mind is distracted and diffused.
Diffuse has two f's & not one, because SpellCheck Just Told Me So. He's Just That Into You. He's just not into her. I'm just not interested in You. Yes You.

1:15 AM.

I know that I am like the rain.

Dusty Bottoms can't fall asleep!
We are in India.
na
bahaha! I burped fog. Vanilla Fog. S'more Fogs. If I could I surely would.

Turn off Your Mind. Relax, & Float down Stream.

Oh we switched it up on ya ?? And ya got lost ? Well catch up fool!

We bought those light bulbs together, you & I.
I kicked my computer. Like I purchased the elephant and ..... the camel ?

Smoking Kills. And if you Smoke then you are Gross. Sorry but you are. So you should quit. Or instead of quitting, you can START "not breathing nicotine"

Bahaha
That was me and a soap box. Brought you by the soap box: "Step on Up" (Batteries not included) .

I can show you a better time. This was for all those of you who have nothing better to do right now rather than read on and on rambling of a lunatic, ME.

Little ol Lunatic Lindsey. Little ol ludacris lunatic, Linzseyeyyeysyeysy! That's luda!
I miss you .
The thing is always say "We'll never change" "We'll stay the same" "Nothing will be different." But the sad truth that we are all avoiding... It's that we did change. We all changed. It happened.

And we will never be the same we were before.
Lucy is in that fuckin sky with diamonds. Lucy and her ludacris ideas.


Goodnight. Z

tequila

No matter if it's the teeniest tiniest amount: tequila is not my friend.

End of Story.

dry

I'm tired of dealing with this ridiculous behavior. It is not my responsibility anymore... and honestly I never thought it really was.

Grow up & Move on. I have grown tired of these games, and I have exhausted my feelings.

I have run dry.

z

so grood.

I feel like May was non existent.. I vividly remember it being April... but May ?

What happened to you May? What the hell happened!?!? Cause it is just a little over one week until June... whaaaaaaaat?


Somebody give me reason to wear my sailor-esque dress again please <3..

Much love to you all

Z

ps this is short and sweet tonight cause i am majorly tired. groodnight moon.

Stops my mind from Wandering

Well since yesterday and the beach was such a bust, today I am going outside to get some majorly needed sunlight.

Thanks so much. It will be great :)

"Suffering is essential to happiness. We must know being too cold to appreciate being warm.

Z

thursdays

well Thursday is here again. we will see..

i am tired of games.

unless its a kind i can put on the table and i win at the end.

other than that i hate games..

unless it's a sport. i like those kinds too.

anything else i hate..

unless.... no that's it i hate the rest of games.

so don't try to play them with me, unless they are the kinds that i mentioned that i like.

hope its a happy thursday.

z

fleeting

The entire episode of Saturday Night Live from last night was absolutely INCREDIBLE.


This probably being the most fantastic part of it. But then again, almost all of it was great.



I hope you all enjoy this fantastic episode.

Tomorrow I am off to the bat cave. I hope I have something good enough.
Then Tuesday is more school. Working on Wednesday. More school again on Thursday.. and then it will be Friday again. Oh week, you are so fleeting.

peace
Z

i keep my life on a heavy rotation

i just moved my entire bedroom around. it's bomb. that's for sure

it's sunday.
Happy Mother's Day mom.

i love you.

i have Loads of lame shit to do tomorrow... blerg

also i am going to sleep now.. hopefully this week will be better than last week

z

5 Mayo Sammiches

I've opened up the canals of my brain to let a new way of thinking flow through them..
I'll come up with phrases to blow your mind.

-A Pleasant Whatever.

My computer just moo'd at me..
What a fat cow my computer is.

-I used to miss you a lot. And right now I don't miss you cause I see you all the time.. And it's hard for me to decide whether or not I can miss you again in the future.

i had a chair that always made a funny sound.. I miss that chair...
oh snap. I have school tomorrow. That's not weird at all. Things will not be weird this week. They will be 100% normal. A-Ok.

This is what I deserve for being a stupid, stupid girl. We are stupid girls and if we are not, then what else to do we have? One day you will be too, and you can judge yourself for all the stupid things you did..

One day you will have to make a mistake and learn from it.. Otherwise.. you are stupider than I am. But for forever.

----
I am learning to play Strangers by the Kinks... on guitar. i can play the first for lines.. haha

stoked am i on life sometimes..

-i hate your font. it hurts my cornea region.
Where is my alarm clock ?
Yesterday was Star Wars day! May 4th.. May the 4th "May the Fourth be with you" bahaha

knock knock:
•who's there?
CINCO DE MAYO!

Happy Cinco De Mayo. Can I have five mayos on my sammich please?

z

where you are

watching family guy is great....

had a good weekend. Thanks to Turtle for inviting us to his awesome birthday party..

i'm ready i am..

"i'm nicotine. I'm coming clean. I've fooled the crowd when I made it sound like I was more than ready"

so let's move on. Let go... Dwell no longer..


Happiness is never stopping to think whether you are.


<3

Be precisely where you are,
Who you are,
What you are.

I love..

30 Rock. So hilarious.

i want to be liz lemon's best friend..

liz lemon cool J

& elle z marie... bff

bahaha

i'm frustrated that i'm so frustrated...

i'm over it.



ps i'm calling tina fey today to ask her if she will be my bff

peace
z

at first

it was weird..




but then...... it was amazing...

and then it was over. With no promise that it can happen again.



z

i.am.not.a.robot....orami?

bruises

on my knees for you..

"you look like the rock"
--"thanks"
"i don't like the rock"

so even though i tried to go to bed at about 9:30, i'm still awake... nearly 5 hours later..

wtf is up with that!?

i have lost my cool lately... completely out of the window it went...

i haven't been myself. i've been a crazy person.

been listening to more coconut records. i like you davy.

"is this sound okay?" is my favorite right now yay!

hmm i can't eat much either.

well i'm off to try to begin dreaming.. maybe i will dream excellent dreams... *le sigh*

yesterday

Yesterday was a bust... today is not looking too promising either.

I am tired of settling for just being comfortable.

z

420

in honor of today





HILARIOUS! Enjoy!

mild congestion

it's just one of those days.. I'm Sick. I'm sad. I'm not really sure what's going on. I'm tired. and I could be fine just crying my eyes out for no reason at all.
I know it's only temporary insanity.. a lapse in lucidity. Totally. That makes sense...

Tomorrow I will be fine again. Well maybe still sick. So right now it's okay in this very moment that I feel melancholy. To describe the feeling exactly.. I feel like my heart weighs 100lbs on its own.

And I feel like the rest of body is not strong enough to lift it.

You know when you try so hard repeatedly to get something you want. Even if it's not the most important thing in your life... even if it's this tiny minuscule thing that won't matter later on, it'll only make you temporarily happy.... But just the fact that I want it so badly right now... and I can't seem to get it. After multiple attempts I still can't attain it. How completely frustrating is that!? 100%..

I might as well drive myself absolutely crazy just thinking about it. But alas time spent dreaming & wishing is time lost in living life.

silly girl with silly dreams. grow up for once... for now...

z

we won't get caught...

.......we're on a mission from god.

LOST blew my mind.. 3/4 of the way through the episode, I was saying "this episode blew my mind..." Then I watched the last scene... And my brain exploded.

Too much to discuss.. my brain is tired. And I need sleep.

Also I am disappointed that London was sent home on ANTM tonight...

But I will live on to watch another week. And tomorrow excellent line up on NBC. :)


Z

A piece of you for a piece of me.

Listen to Minus the Bear!





love always

Boo Netflix!

So I just got an e-mail from my Netflix saying that they're increasing my $1 a month blu-ray access to $4 a month! LAME! This is such a bummer. I love my blu-ray DVDs but as a poor person, I don't really have the extra money just layin around to spend on watchin high definition.
DAMN YOU NETFLIX! How can they raise prices at a time like this? So selfish of you, Netflix... So selfish.
What do y'all think? Is blu-ray a part of your life as much as it is mine? HD is the only way to go guys! Get rid of those "prison bars" on the side of your TV and get HD!

peace

Not in a While

Well I'm back once more. To try to resuscitate my poor old blog. I started blogging on my personal website. www.lindseywashburn.com But it might be easier to just update from here. That's what I decided anyways.

There are so many ways to blog into the world. You have blogger, Notes on Facebook, blogs on myspace, personal websites, Youtube, Twitter. I've tried loads. The one that I can remember being most successful was Xanga. But hopefully with this, I can start blogging successfully again. Please give me the strength to KEEP blogging. Not that anyone really cares what the hell I'm saying. But it will give me my own piece of mind at least.

Thanks for reading! :)

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