at first

it was weird..




but then...... it was amazing...

and then it was over. With no promise that it can happen again.



z

i.am.not.a.robot....orami?

bruises

on my knees for you..

"you look like the rock"
--"thanks"
"i don't like the rock"

so even though i tried to go to bed at about 9:30, i'm still awake... nearly 5 hours later..

wtf is up with that!?

i have lost my cool lately... completely out of the window it went...

i haven't been myself. i've been a crazy person.

been listening to more coconut records. i like you davy.

"is this sound okay?" is my favorite right now yay!

hmm i can't eat much either.

well i'm off to try to begin dreaming.. maybe i will dream excellent dreams... *le sigh*

yesterday

Yesterday was a bust... today is not looking too promising either.

I am tired of settling for just being comfortable.

z

420

in honor of today





HILARIOUS! Enjoy!

mild congestion

it's just one of those days.. I'm Sick. I'm sad. I'm not really sure what's going on. I'm tired. and I could be fine just crying my eyes out for no reason at all.
I know it's only temporary insanity.. a lapse in lucidity. Totally. That makes sense...

Tomorrow I will be fine again. Well maybe still sick. So right now it's okay in this very moment that I feel melancholy. To describe the feeling exactly.. I feel like my heart weighs 100lbs on its own.

And I feel like the rest of body is not strong enough to lift it.

You know when you try so hard repeatedly to get something you want. Even if it's not the most important thing in your life... even if it's this tiny minuscule thing that won't matter later on, it'll only make you temporarily happy.... But just the fact that I want it so badly right now... and I can't seem to get it. After multiple attempts I still can't attain it. How completely frustrating is that!? 100%..

I might as well drive myself absolutely crazy just thinking about it. But alas time spent dreaming & wishing is time lost in living life.

silly girl with silly dreams. grow up for once... for now...

z

we won't get caught...

.......we're on a mission from god.

LOST blew my mind.. 3/4 of the way through the episode, I was saying "this episode blew my mind..." Then I watched the last scene... And my brain exploded.

Too much to discuss.. my brain is tired. And I need sleep.

Also I am disappointed that London was sent home on ANTM tonight...

But I will live on to watch another week. And tomorrow excellent line up on NBC. :)


Z