mild congestion

it's just one of those days.. I'm Sick. I'm sad. I'm not really sure what's going on. I'm tired. and I could be fine just crying my eyes out for no reason at all.
I know it's only temporary insanity.. a lapse in lucidity. Totally. That makes sense...

Tomorrow I will be fine again. Well maybe still sick. So right now it's okay in this very moment that I feel melancholy. To describe the feeling exactly.. I feel like my heart weighs 100lbs on its own.

And I feel like the rest of body is not strong enough to lift it.

You know when you try so hard repeatedly to get something you want. Even if it's not the most important thing in your life... even if it's this tiny minuscule thing that won't matter later on, it'll only make you temporarily happy.... But just the fact that I want it so badly right now... and I can't seem to get it. After multiple attempts I still can't attain it. How completely frustrating is that!? 100%..

I might as well drive myself absolutely crazy just thinking about it. But alas time spent dreaming & wishing is time lost in living life.

silly girl with silly dreams. grow up for once... for now...

z